In 18 short days I will be 33 years old friends. That is 33 years of failures, mistakes, mercy and grace. Thank you Jesus, Hallelujah!
Before I proceed any further, however, let me start out by apologizing for being MIA. If you kept up with the last post, you know that life for me has been a little hectic. I’ve been in a season of heartache, trauma and recovery. Things haven’t quite been a walk in the park but nonetheless, I still have a lot to be thankful for. Moving forward, I am really excited about this new month and new season I am about to enter into. I was asked recently, where I thought I was in this season of my life and I really believe that I am on the forefront of entering into the land that overflows with milk and honey. You see, for a long time, I have been in this season of waiting and in a sense I still am, as I wait on God’s promises to me.
BUT turning 33 is going to be such a huge blessing. I have been through 3 whole decades of life. If you divide my upcoming age by 3 (The Holy Trinity), you get 11. The number of countries I am visiting on my missions trip! How cool is that? No real relevance, other than I think about things like that and how they hold meaning in my life. This next year is going to be a year of rest for me. Not because I won’t have my career or like I am going to be on a permanent vacation, but rather resting in God’s love and presence. I can hardly wait. Just preparing for this upcoming trip has given me an interesting perspective as to how God uses everything that happens in our lives, whether good or bad, for His glory.
Right now, I am in a place of peace. I am still in therapy and attending a trauma support group to help with my healing. I’ve been having more good days than bad and I can finally say that I am embracing this season of growth I am in. Things are uncomfortable, I am homeless, still fundraising but I am living. I feel like absolutely everything I have been through in recent months has just been preparing me for what is yet to come.
I am still learning to be still and trusting that God will do what He says He will. Even when my circumstance says all the contrary. What about you? Where are you in your life right now?
I have to be honest. As much as I give God the praise and glory for all He is doing, some days I still wonder, just how things will all work together for my good. I’m leaving my job shortly, giving up my car, living in my nieces living room and some days are just hard. It’s weird not being independent and having your own space. Sometimes, I don’t even understand what my life is right now. It feels so surreal. Things are about to change – drastically.
Everyone and everything I have ever known and loved is staying here, in the U.S. while I give it all up to go live my life in abandon. Traveling around the world, never staying in one place too long. Away from all the comfortable and familiar things in order to live and love like Jesus did when He walked this earth. It seems a little crazy, but I know it will be worth it. I am as ready as I’ll ever be.
Here’s to turning 33! Good day friends, I’ll blog more later. Just wanted to give a little update and say hi. God bless you all!
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